Pulsion of Life

• French

Wow what a catchy title, doesn’t it ?

I bought my Moleskine about a year ago, I was still in France. But I kept it blank, fearing to waste its beautiful pages.

I finally took the leap and started to fill it inch-by-inch. I even find it a focus, something to hold all the pages together: the discovery of my Self. It’s not a small subject *sigh* !

I feel my Moleskine will be my ally on a long and tortuous road, but full of discoveries. More or less pleasant.

My Moleskin perfectly fits the July theme of July in Creative Every Day, which is “Self”; as this Journal is integraly focused on this subject. I decided to let my Self speaks without any taboo nor censorship: I accept myself as I am and not as people would like me to be. Too bad if I don’t like these sides, they are me. Or… was.

I still have to make the outside cover, I don’t exactly know what I want it to look like, I’m looking for a door handle and things like that. I’m not in a urge, it will be done later.

This is the introduction spread, right behin the cover (so the left page is hard).

I played with a credit cart and fluid paint. I love the result. The blops are simple made by water splashes applied while the paint was still wet.

Some or white paint.

Now that Cheridoo (my husband) offered me a big protective sheet, I won’t be affraid of puting paint everywhere (on the table, the chair, the floor, not to tell that my clothes where full of paint too).

It’s a little bit… too much, but I like it like that !

Then, it was important for me to define a little bit who I am.

I struggle so much to make a Trollette colored-skin (yeaaaah I finally found a name for my Girls. It was so obvious that it blinded me. For those who don’t know, my husband and I use to call our two daughters “Trollettes”). So it’s evident that her skin is kinda messed up !

Obviously, the list is incomplete. So I’ll need a few more pages to continue the definitions.

When I look at this page, it brings a smile on my face: I tried to dress her up with a top I love in real life.

This spread is actually the last one. I love it. It came in my mind after thinking of one of my Mark Ryden‘s favorite picture, called Wound. This picture used to be my avatar on forums for soooo long, some years ago.

I love it so much that I made it again, but bigger and on a canvas paper. I changed some details because I don’t like to do the exact same thing twice.

For once, I don’t add some journaling. It speaks to me as it is.

The water wasn’t meant to look like that, this black area shouldn’t stand out. But it gives an impression that I enjoy so it does not bother me that much. Indeed, it’s pretty funny how it turned to be totally different.

However, I’ve got a huuuuuuge issue that I encounter only a few times: my pages stick together. It’s awful because when I try to split them out, it tears apart and destroy it.

Should I put wax paper between EVERY spread ?! is it because I use mostly acrylic paint and sometimes polymer medium (which is really sticky) ?

To be continued…